the day i longed for.
im suppose to feel happy.
but she decided to put an end to it.
nw, its ALL OVER.

few days before,
she was holdin on so tight,
tellin me not to let go.
sayin i cant leave.
I DIDNT CHOOSE TO LEAVE, BUT I STAY.

now, she decided to put an end cos,
; she thinks that i dont appreciate her.
; being with me is so stressed and pressurized.
; she wanna stay single, available.
; she wants to concentrate on her studies.
; she thinks that im a burden in her life.
; she wants to persuade her dream.
; she thinks that i dont treasure her.
; she thinks that i dont cherish the stuffs she gave me
; she thinks i enjoy hurting her.

that was what she thinks.

she didnt wanna tell me.

nique told me.
went to her blog.
saw THAT GIRL taggin her.
seeing her name on the tagboard makes me tear even more.

talked to nique and qiaolin last night.
i envy nique.
she has got the patience.
she waited for 6mths.
she wants to protect her like every other gf do.
but when she realised that she cant tk it, MAJOR BREAKDOWN HAPPENS.
i know how hurting it is.
she lost almost everyone.

why cant she haf a lil more patience?
why cant she speak up?
i know i cant expect her to be like everyone else.
im not askin her to be like nique!

im not suppose to cry.
she worth my tears, im not suppose to cry.

aft losing her, i realised i still need fwens afterall.
nique was there to comfort.
she was the second bungg to hear me cry over the phone.
i caused her scoldings.
Nique, Im sorry!

second, was qiaolin.
she told me plentyyee things to wash my brain.
she knows when i call, smth bad mus haf happened.
i didnt mean to let her worry.
she warned me since the first break up we had,
i refused to listen.
now i realised, she's right all along.
haix, i dont know lah
anw, thanks for being there for me, to qiaolin and nique.
(: LOVE YOU ALL.

`shall update agn another time

`does this r/s matters to you?
you broke me.

; stick with you